Feel so much

Little pills, such a light pink they're almost white. 10mg of Albilify. just enough to keep the crazy contained.

but is it? or am i crazy anyhow?

i feel jittery and cold and weepy. I want to run, shout, cry. I want to curl up underneath my comforter and sleep forever. I want to eat nutella and graham crackers until I'm sick.

I want to cause catastrophe.

I'm craving emotion right now. it feels like a drug in itself. I am in withdrawal.

"I just wanna run to you

and break off the chains

and throw them away

I just wanna be so much

and shake off the dust

that turn me to rust

Sooner than later, I'll need a saviour

I need a saviour "

~ Lights