No Sleep

can't sleep. again. why does this keep happening to me?
Why am i up all night?
my head is hurting. my eyes are itching, yet when my head hits the pillow my eyes pop open like firecrackers. and BAM, I'm wide awake.
now i'm trying to write myself to sleep.
but i don't have anything to say.
this sucks, let me tell you. it sucks to crave sleep, but fear it and wind up becoming some half-baked insomniac that naps all day because she's over-tired.

No sleep for this little girl.
not tonight.

Dear God,
Why? why is this always been this way? must i always fight sleep? help me sleep now, God. please. I'm going to go back to bed and crawl under the covers and stick one foot out of the blankets and close my eyes. I'm going to do the counting-breathing thing June taught me to do. And I will hopefully be asleep soon. Yet if there is some reason why i need to be up, then fine, have it your way.
Your will be done,
Amen